Well here's me again. I feel sorta sad that nobody reads this, but what the hell, it's mainly for me I guess. I'm trying to find ways to detach, being like a Budhist type guy, non-resistence (internally), non-attachment, non-judgement. It really works sometimes. Still I am no monk. It's a work in progress as are most things for me. Had a pretty interesting time on Thanksgiving. Went to see my sister, and ate some chicken. It was cool that I was there. Then I went to Kathy's Mom's where their clan has it's usual gathering, and got pretty depressed. It was interesting how K's family seems to still accept me politely and with some affection here and there. Too bad Kathy does not. I guess it really is over between us, but there is this damnable connection that must continue bec ause we have kids. I have cried frequently over this falling apart of my family. Yet, I cannot speak to Kathy about it, because I believe she would either not understand or not care. Women are able to be the coldest creatures. Or at least the ones I pick. It's like I get what I believe I deserve. In this case a woman unable to feel any compassion or empathy particularly for those who are in some way sick, as I am. My mother unable to be physically affectionate, but compensating by being overly protective. K doesn't want to be connected to me in any way that I can tell. She's just stuck with me because of the kids. Ce la vie. Holidays under these circumstances are not very pleasant. They call up the loss. Geez this is depressing, but at least its real. S'pose that's something.

Hi, Sunday 11/9/08

Okay so we got a new President and that was a boost for ones flagging political, racial optimism. I'm in creative swing with lots of things, but very little money, no romantic relationships (not that I'm lookin or anything. No really...) I've been crushed lately by my family situation on a variety of levels, not just with my spousal unit. Still, many potentials seem to be shaping up for good entrepreneurial success. As always forever change...I'm working on gymnastics portraits of the kids. Here is the photo I took that will be the template for Liam's portrait.

Hi, it's October 14

Okay, so I haven't blogged for a while. My work on a Sustainability conference in Stratford, NH has heated up, and is currently well beyond what I originally planned, and probably over my head. It's scheduled for Nov. 1st, but I don't know if I'll have it together for then, but I'm committed to seeing it through. ce la vie! Meanwhile, I am rehearsing with my band and it's sounding good. I have arranged to premiere the band at the First Parish Church (unitarian) in Bedford, MA. We'll do three songs during the course of a service. I am working on a music video which I had a major flash of inspiration about. Here is me in costume which I may use as the look I will have as leading man (I'll be singing and playing the guitar as well). May I introduce the Baron Wolff Alexander Herwitz!
Moving right along, I am meeting and reaching out to people of all types at an all time high rate. Most of my communications with folks are good, interesting and needful. I am certain that what John Donne wrote in 1624 is basic truth about our need/connection to one another is correct. Here it is and many people know the original line:

No man is an island, entire of itself; every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main. If a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe is the less, as well as if a promontory were, as well as if a manor of thy friend's or of thine own were: any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind, and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee.

Okay, her comes my next post.  Heavy changes continue to come down in my life.  I believe they are appropriate and needful changes and feel generally good about my life in spite of my financial troubles, and other not so happy circumstances including but not limited to: my seperation from my wife and therefore to varying degrees, from my children.  Although as mentioned previously my relationship with my wife as it regards the children has been generally amicable and seems to be working with some stutters and confusions.  I believe we are both doing the best we can.  

My Sustainability project in Stratford, NH is picking up momentum very quickly and is looking like our first major conference will take place either at the end of October, or the 1st of November.

Meanwhile, on other fronts, I will shortly complete my indie-film piece.  This is a polemic political piece entitled, as is this site, the working title, "Raven's Eye Speaks."  I have also been working on a three piece largely original band.  I shall also be adding a few of my older art pieces on this post.  I hope someone is seeing this and will check me out, but we'll see!

More me

Okay I wanted to put more of a closeup so you can better see my handsome visage!

Adding content

This is me in my Wolff Alexander persona with my colt and my guitar.

Checkin in

It's been a while since I decided to write anything here. A lot has happened since my last post. I moved and separated from my wife (Kathleen), I'm living in my tent in the backyard of a friend. It's a big tent and I have all my toys, computers and such, hooked up and it's comfy. Still I need to get inside as it gets colder. Nice huh? I'm playing some music with Ronnie Lee Scott(bass) and Ian Boren (drums). We're gonna do a little gig down in Rhode Island this Saturday. I'm doing stuff that I like to do for work, and it's a habit I want to keep. I'm getting chump change disability money so I need to find more money. I'm getting Mass Rehab to put up some training money (I hope) so I can learn to use my 3-D modeling software and do much CGI. I'm still working on the Sustainability project with Dr. Michael Ben-Eli and the town of Stratford, NH. We're supposed to be shooting my scene in "The Ninth Circle" shortly, which I am dying to get done. I also floated a fresh resume out to a couple of jobs at MIT.
My kids are good but of course it's hard having Dad move out, but we're working out regular schedules for visitation and it's okay.
Meanwhile I'm gonna add some artwork, film, music, and photos every chance I get. Here's a photo of our actors from The Ninth Circle, good kids and did their spec ops parts with gusto in rainy, cold, and rocky conditions for two days working into the wee hours of the morning.

Hello all, or hello me since not too many people even know about this blog yet. I say "yet" with the hope that other's will sometime read this stuff. As the monk said to the self-assured boy, "We'll see..."
Things sometimes look so bleak to me, and the world such an unfriendly place, but I often meet, or speak to someone who lifts my spirits. Tonite was such a night. I had a really good conversation with one of the John Glenn Middle School (Bedford, MA) custodians. Whatever our differences may be we found plenty of common ground in terms of how we might survive the upcoming and present troubles surrounding us all. I talked about the Michael Ben-Eli Bucky Fuller sustainability initiatives, and myself, and he told me some of his story and troubles. Our connection warmed my heart, and I hope to stay in touch with him.
Meanwhile my upcoming separation from Kathy and this house looms ever-larger filling me with many difficult and lonely decisions to make. I wish I could help Kathy to understand why I am unable to fulfill her her expectations as a husband/provider. Thus far I have failed to to find a way, and really in a variety of ways I am just beginning to understand it myself. If she could only see what I have seen with her eyes...
My heart breaks when I think of it all, but ambivalence reigns and I also feel the great need to get away from her disdain and the responsibilities of this domestic life. I truly believe that familiarity breeds contempt particularly in a small nuclear family, or as JW Bush would probably say, "the nuculer family." I have found that I feel much more affinity to a tribal kind of existence. Perhaps that's a way to go. I also resonate with Buddhist thought as well as the Mayan calender cosmology. I pray they are right and we are coming to a wonderful new paradigm in human and planetary evolution. This is to take place in 2012. I believe the beginning of that momentous shift is to commence on October 28th of that year. It's not far off so "we'll see..." More as it happens. Goodnight and best wishes to you all.

Me and Liam otherwise known as #2 son. This is the kind of guy we need in the world. Fantastic sport's talent, smart, sense of humor, good looking. I can already see he will be a babe magnet...

Ariel and Kiera my two fabulous daughters at xmas 2007. Beautiful are they not?

Okay, here is sister Carla, daughter kiera and me at xmas 2007

This is Christian, or as I like to call him #1 son, being first born. This is Xmas 2007. This is one great kid (young man)! Impressive intellect, talented, good work ethic, and now has perhaps found his calling and is going for a pysch phd. He is also an aatist! He's a little tough on himself and others, but, wow just think, I didn't totally screw him up.

need to write

Hmm, listening to Bach right now the Toccata and Fugue in D Minor, has to be one of the all-time greatest compositions ever. I'm talking history of mankind here. Bach was a rock star no doubt. It's funny how writing something here, mostly not knowing who will read it, is like writing a novel. It allows an intimacy and an anonymity that does not happen in other forms. I know some of the folks who read it are close to me and that makes me a little more circumspect about what I say, but not too much. Anyway, it's early am and I am, as usual, not asleep. I think I wanna post some images.

This is a still from a movie project I am working on with John Thordarson's Tribal Films entitled, "Ninth Circle" (working title). This is an action movie short, and we think it could be really good. I am hoping that we can finish shooting this year. In addition to co-authoring the script, I wrote the dialog, I have a featured part (Colonel Ockham ), and I shot some aerial footage during the shoot of our big battle scene. That was sick! A great opportunity with some good results for the film. I was doing the whole thing with one foot hanging out of the chopper and a gyro-stabilizer attached to the camera.

These are my two beautiful 8 year old twins. Liam and Kiera

Life goes on within me and without me

Well, I am in the midst of so many changes it is hard to know what to put here first. My wife and I are going to do a trial separation starting July 1st. I've got no place to live yet, and no money to speak of. Urrk...Meanwhile, I am hoping to return to school and continue my film, art/music and sustainability work. I sometimes just stop and look at the beauty around me, (trees, grass, flowers, people, sunshine, breathing, just being alive, etc). It calms me. I am posting some of my new photographs, and I hope to have some of my video pieces up soon. So dear reader, whoever you may be, I hope all is well with you.

Okay, working on a polemic type piece and rerecorded audio track today. It came out well with rewrites from the original. I'm going to post the video as soon as I have finished editing. I am working out of the Bedford Community Access TV studio so it will be broadcast there and on YouTube as well. It's pretty good I think, but we will see...
Meanwhile, I am a pretty unhappy person today, having had a riproaring argument with my soon-to-be x spouse the way it looks. Having young children involved makes all this a real nightmare. Where I will live is unknown, but my work, my children, close family members, and a few good friends give me some peace. I guess that's all I can expect.
This has been one hell of a weird life so far! I am very concerned about the world situation and the ongoing horeshit that is going on in our country. I am interested in the upcoming election only inasmuch as my hope that the winner will slow down the Bilderburgers plans for world domination (no it is not simply a conspiracy nut's paranoia). Look around tell me what you see. I see an ongoing horror show akin to Armageddon or whatever you like. This has been going on for some years. I'd probably start with WWI as a good beginning point for our current genocidal, disaster, and disease prone species and planet. So if you're one of those who is wondering when it will happen, believe me, it is well under way. I am a studier of the Mayan predictive calender which chronicles the development of consciousness here and ends with a major paradigm shift in consciousness in 2012. Visit calleman.com in this regard. It gives a good explanation of the whole thing. Whether one believes in such things or not, it is a fascinating view of the human condition here on earth.
On the other hand I am looking to simply survive in a world gone terribly wrong, and to see to it that my loved ones survive as well. More as it happens...

This is me with my colt strapped on. However, this was done in prep for a music video I'm working on. I am not actually a gun-slinger, but I play one on TV!

Greetings to all

My name is Alex Herwitz. I am 57 years old, born November 15, 1950. So, I am a "boomer" so-called, but I have little use for being pigeon-holed in that or any other way. I am an artist. Yeah, it is kind of a fancy name, and also has a lot of connotations good and bad, but it is the best I can do at the moment. I am also into Bucky Fulleresque Design Science. I will post the latest document on Design Science for anyone who is interested. Don't be put off by the rather -complex language. Bucky was not trying to be unclear, but he was creating a new way of speaking about his work and ideas. It has subsequently been added to by a number of different folks, but is mostly the brain-child of Michael Ben-Eli student and friend to Bucky (you can google Michael and you will come up with a variety of references to his vital work in the world. If you google my name you will come up with references to my connection to Michael's work through a Buckminster Fuller Institute forum on the definition of sustainability).

Also, I am apparently really into hyphenated words and names! Oh well...
I will be posting art and film pieces, photography, poetry, writing pieces, comedy, and ongoing info on the Sustainability Initiative I am working on. The sustainability stuff is probably the most important project I am working on, and has far-reaching potential.
So, we'll see, but I hope to put all sorts of interesting content as i go along. However, you can probably expect all sorts of ramblings since we live in such "interesting times!" Love to you all.

Alex